'Cause all of me... Loves all of you... Love your curves and all your edges... All your perfect imperfections... Give your all to me... I'll give my all to you... You're my end and my beginning... Even when I lose I'm winning... 'Cause I give you all of me... And you give me all of you - All Of Me, John Legend
today, after 2 days Jaebeom of 2PM quits from the band, JYP finally released his official statement! seriously, i almost shed a tears AGAIN while reading it and after reading it! it was so touching and heartbreaking... from the words of JYP, how Jaebeom's changed from a rebellious kid to how we see him now!!!
i never imagined that this issue really hurt Jaebeom so hard! he is taking it way too hard but only he knew what he felt... he looks strong from outside yet he is fragile from inside...
it is way too hard for me to accept the fact actually! i cried like a lil kid when the news of him quitting spread! and i even cried the whole day and just to make me realise, the last time i cried hardly was when i broke up with my ex 7 months ago. i never imagined the news of him quitting 2PM will give me such impact. and the next day (yesterday), i decided to get all the strength back but it is not such an easy thing for me to do! i will easily get my eyes watery everytime i remembered about him... although i knew i should be away from 2PM stuffs for a while, i decided not to run away! i let my CD player plays ONLY YOU in repeat mode... and everytime i listened to his singing part, i break down once again!
seriously, i hope i'll get my emotions straight as soon as possible, so i can rewatch Idol Army & Wild Bunny once again without shedding a tears at all coz i miss 2PM, i miss JAY PARK on my little screen...
JYP's official letter at least makes me realise, i have to be more realistic than emotional. i don't want to hope for something that is uncertain. i am now decided to accept him as JAY PARK and not Jaebeom of 2PM! this doesn't means that i will lose hope completely coz at least there's this tiny hope that he will comeback...
just i wish JAY will not give up on his dreams and still go for it!!! he is a talented guy that will be a lost if we just let he goes!!!
i didn't bumped into 2PM's performance of Again & Again in Music Bank on KBS World in May 2009, so i will not know bout 2PM at all til now!
i didn't go gaga over Hate You's 1st live performance that makes me decided to be a Hottest so it will not hurt me so much now!
I DON'T GET MYSELF INTO K-POP's WORLD A YEAR AGO, SO I DON'T CARE ABOUT THIS STUFF & LEARN HOW CRUEL KOREAN ENTERTAINMENT CAN BE!
yes, i can wish all that BUT... HOW U MAKE~~~
me giggle everytime you use your leader power to bully your dongsaeng-deul!
me laugh my ass out everytime i re-watched your fan attack on Taec in Wild Bunny!
me smirk at your driving skill which was worst than a granny!
me drooling over your 6 packs!
us fans roll on floor laughing with all your dorkiness and craziness
so, this is it??? no more JAEBEOM or JAY or SEATTLE GRANDPA in 2PM??? do you really want me to say So Long to you??? can i refuse??? can i still dream one day, you'll be back again to reunite with your dongsaeng-deul in 2PM???
PARK JAE BEOM-ssi,
can you see how 2PM and you effect my life? what should i do with my 2PM's album now coz everytime i look at it, i'll cry! is 2PM gonna be the same without you as their leader? i'm mourning over your lost in 2PM. i feel like quitting as HOTTEST but i know deep inside your heart, you want us to give a 100% support to 2PM just like you were there! I STAY... i believe, all the 6 members will work harder and continue all the hardwork just like when you were part of it! the members need us now! so, don't worry, i'll support 2PM although it only left 6 members in it (but to us, you always part of 2PM...ALWAYS!) hopefully, this is not the end for you and i'm hoping that one day i can see you shorty jay in my little screen!!!
here are latest list of albums that i'm craving for:
SS501 2nd Solo Collection i wanted this album since it was out coz i love all their solo's songs in here! and after i took a glance of the album with some of Triple S during their fan-meting last week, i knew i have to grab this album! afterall, it is not that expensive! RM55 on yesasia ^^
Jejung & Yuchun's Colors - Melody & Harmony i'm a Soulmate lovers! when i knew they gonna come out a single, i was freaking excited! i decided to buy the CD+DVD version... i'm not sure about the price yet since i'm going to buy the Taiwan version ^^
G-Dragon 1st Solo Album, Heartbreaker i never expected that i'm planning to buy his album! i don't listen to Big Bang except for Haru Haru! but his Heartbreaker's song is something that i can't resist! GD looks hot neway ^^
Tohoshinki Final In Tokyo Dome DVD by hook or by crook, i must buy this concert DVD!
okay, he shouldn't say it! it was totally rude of saying that... i do understand how the netizens felt coz i was mad when people said bad about my country few days before merdeka! so, i understand if the netizens are freaking mad at him now until they open a petition to send him home!
but he admitted his mistake! he was only 18 years old boy, who had a hard time to adapt with a culture that was totally different for him! he apologised, so why can't they just forgive him???? i bet he loves koreans now!!! LEAVE HIM ALONE!!!!
to those who loves 2PM & Jaebeom, sign this PETITION & show support to him!!!!
ps: i think the one who dug his 4 years ago post totally got nothing better to do ha???? how much trouble the person has to face before he/she found that post? sometimes people can be creepy!
ignore me... i think my Hyun Joong's pee-beoh strikes on me again after seeing his bloody good-looking face in front of my eyes... and i do MISS him like crazy... remembers all the moments when he was just right in front of my eyes, i'm totally IN LOVE! buahahahaha... slap my face coz daydream too much ^^
well, since i miss him, so, i did a lil stalking mission on Youtube when i bumped a vid when he rehearsed UR MAN's choreagraphy! drooling with his move... :P
i'm freaking addicted to this song after seeing G-Dragon of Big Bang debut performance on Inkigayo last week! plus, he pulled out that freaking bleach blond hair so well! he looks so damn hot with that hair k...
ROMANISATION
Ayo! Finally! Is this what you've been waiting for? (brand new gd) I'm all by myself, but it's all good You're my heartbreaker (dj and yg) Let me take this song
Nado eodiseo kkullijin anheo Ajik sseulmanhan geol jukji anhasseo Neohana ttaemune manggajin mom Sarajin kkum motchatneun mam Neol wihaeseoramyeon I han mom nallyeo Niga inneun gosimyeon dallyeo Hajiman geudaen naege annyeong tto annyeong
No no You're my heart heart heart heart heart breaker naega mwoljalmotaenneunji You're my heart heart heart heart heart breaker no way no way
Naega neol tteonagandaedo (ay) Naneun jeongmal gandago (ay) Jalsanabojago (ay) (lovers and haters) Jigeutjigeutjigeutae ppigeutppigeutppigeutae Naesarangui bigeuge no way
Maeil ttokgachi mutneunde Neon naega byeonhaetdago hae gajingseureon ipdamullae Sangdaega nugunji algo malhae Nan ije out of control honjaseo gyesokmitto Geujari geugoseseo annyeong tto annyeong
A yo! finally! Is this what you’ve been waiting for? brand new G.D! I’m all by my self, but it’s all good. you’re my heartbreaker DJ and YG. Let me take this song here
I don’t fall behind, I’m still useful, I haven’t died yet because of you, my body destroyed, my dream disappeared, my mind lost for you i’d throw my entire body, to the place you’re at i’d run but you said goodbye and goodbye
what was the reason why you didn’t like me? your confident expression, tell me everything, it makes me sad but even if i say i like you and ask you for another chance, your back turned on me, i don’t like your cold look
no no yo ma heart heart heart breaker i don’t know what i did wrong yo ma heart heart heart breaker no way no way
though i said i’d leave you, i’m really going to leave, let’s see how you live by yourself
i’m sick of my love’s tragedy no way everyday i ask the same thing, you say i changed, will you shut your hypocritical mouth? say after knowing who i’m competing against. i’m now out of control, by myself continuously- that moment that place goodbye and goodbye
what was the reason why you didn’t like me? your confident expression, tell me everything, it makes me sad but even if i say i like you and ask you for another chance, your back turned on me, i hate your cold smile
no no yo ma heart heart heart breaker i dno’t know what i did wrong yo ma heart heart heart breaker yo ma breaker no way no way
though i said i’d leave you, i’m really going to leave, let’s see how you live by yourself i’m sick of my love’s tragedy no way i’ll still still be there (despite your turned off phone) i’ll still still be there (like the mailbox in front of my house)
i still love you (even if we’re strangers)
i will still be there
together forever, those words are just temporarily sweet at that moment why are you not affected, while i’m hurting so much
yo ma heart heart heart breaker i dno’t know what i did wrong yo ma heart heart heart breaker
yo ma heart heart heart breaker breaker h.e.a.r.t. breaker
i think you guys know what i meant! I'M HAPPY COZ I CAN'T BELIEVE I MET KIM HYUN JOONG AND HIS BAND MEMBERS... kim hyun joong is not just some korean artist for me but he is one of my dream guy together with the other 2 KIMs: Jaejoong & Taegoon... ok, i might be more as Hyun Joong's fan rather than SS501 but i do listen to some of their songs and i know i can't miss this opportunity to meet them since SS501 is one of korean biggest boyband.
when the news about SS501 will be having a fan meeting in KL, M'sia, my first reaction was: OH, MY GOD! KIM HYUN JOONG... i can't believe SS501 is coming to town... for 2 days i can't concentrate of doing my work and kept dreaming of the fan-meeting! i'm gonna meet THEM ^^
actually, since Thursday is a working day and i'm an employee so, i planned to ciao from office by 4.30 since my office to One World Hotel only 20 minutes away! but a day before the fan-meeting, i decided not to take a risk, i took a half day leave and that means i'll ciao from office at 1pm! by 1pm, i took a taxi and paid freaking expensive fare, RM15! luckily i was in a good mood, so i didn't gave a damn about the fare ^^ i reached One Utama at 1.30pm! since i need to do some shopping for the gifts that i'm about to give them, i tried to be very fast and furious... by 2pm, i reached One World Hotel parking and i think there was about like almost 200 fans already queing!
then, i joined members from Triplesmalaysia like tyra, zaizai, hana & anne!!! Tyra was busy packing 'baju melayu' for the boys... then anne/cheese came and joined us with her banner that in the end brought us to fame... hahahaha! seriously, all the press kept coming to our spot since that banner was freaking noticeable! and one of korean tv station, MBC was there and shot us too! basically we queud around 4-5 hours... the queing gets chaos when they started the selling of the album when people started to cut the line!!! this was when my 2 dongsaengs: Hui & Ducky turned to SCREAMING MONSTER... okay, they have too since people started to push... good job adik-adik ku! buahahaha
anne & me: coz of this banner made by anne, our group has been captured a lot by press including MBC
ducky, hui & me: me & my 2 dongsaeng-deul who turned as SCREAMING MONSTER... kekeke!
when my turns started to get nearer & nearer, only GOD knows how was my heart pumping hardly inside and the moment i stepped inside the conference room, ARGHHHHHHH! i can't believe they were in front my eyes. since 1 fan only allowed to give 1 album to be signatured and only to 1 member and not all 5, we got to choose! of course my choice will be my boo, KIM HYUN JOONG! seriously, his line was crowded and i felt like i was a meat in a burger k... i tried my best not to give up on my boo's line... the organiser got pissed since everybody doesn't want to move to another lines, so he said he will stop my boo line! i still didn't give up ^^ but when the MC said, there'll be another 10 minutues before the fan-meeting ends, and if we still didn't get our CD signed, we will walk home without any siggy! okay, now i'm scared!!! i gave up on my boo's line and moved to BABY's line since he's my 2nd favorite! as my turned will be the next one at Baby's line, Young Saeng's line was free and the organiser asked me to get there... without any frustration, i went to Young Saeng smiling... as he signed on my CD, i moved my eyes to Hyun Joong who was just next to him... okay, he is FREAKING BLOODY GOOD-LOOKING! then my eyes back to Young Saeng and i passed my gift to him and said gamsahamnida... ROFL! i can't believe finally i have the courage to at least said one word in hangul... kekekeke! i was so nervous and when i was about to leave, Young Saeng took out his hand to shake with me! hahahaha... i forgot to shake hand with him... LOL!
my very 1st SS501's album signed by cutie Young Saeng ;)
credit: the huntress@blogspot visit THE HUNTRESS for more good quality pictures
credit: warner music malaysia & triplesmalaysia more pictures please visit TRIPLESMALAYSIA
as i was enjoyed my moment seeing them and seeing them, some of the fans cried when the time showed 7.30pm, coz the fan-meeting has to stop since the boys have to get ready to make a move to KLIA, to catch their 11.45pm flight back to Seoul... i saw some of them crying especially the one who already inside the conference room... herm~~~~
credit: starfir3@triplesmalaysia naughty Jung Min left his piece of art on the table cloth at the fan meeting ^^
well, me and my friend Ida, we decided to get crazy by chasing them in KLIA! this is my first time doing this so called chasing! we reached KLIA around 9pm and we saw some Triple S and i asked whether they boys are already arrived and they said the boys just leave One World... so, we decided to grab some food since we already had a water for buka puasa... we grabbed food at KFC! when we were wandering around outside KLIA, then we just realised Hyun Joong was at this one counter and we immediately rushed! he was alone without the other members... basically from what i heard, he lost his passport in his previous flight but the flight attendance found it and passed the airport management! so, Hyun Joong has to fill some paper etc... we the fans, of course took this opportunity to take his pictures but the manager and security kept asking for us not to take any pictures and videos... after he settled the passport issue, Hyun Joong went down through lift and all the fans started to wander around the airport searching for him and the other 4... we were curious where Hyun Joong went and where are the other four???! me & ida we like walking back and forth like 15 minutes before we decided to get back to the main door of KLIA when we saw DSP's staffs were checking in... oh, the boys are still in the airport... some fans gathered outside KLIA and suddenly an MPV stopped and all the boys came out! the security had to do a human circle so the boys can walk smoothly inside the circle to the departure hall... this was when the situation got chaos and people strated to run and me??? owh, yeah! ME TOO~~~ hahaha... i took a vid of them walking towards the departure hall...
credit: THE HUNTRESS hyun joong-ssi was settling his passport issue ^^
the moments the boys get down, i straight to run to the 'tinjau' area and waited for them to pass by! the first person appeared after the custom checking was Baby and he didn't realised that we can still see them from upstairs... the fans started to knock the glass and he heared, and the upon he looked up and saw us, he jumped surprisingly... seriously, that was cute okay seeing his surprised reaction... then one by one appeared and faded from our eyes... there goes my journey! them gonna be missed by me ^^
one of my fancam of chasing them in KLIA! this was when hyun joong was settling his passport issue for my other fancams, please visit my YOUTUBE page
the boys used a whiteboard marker and a lot of fans pissed off coz the siggies were erased bit by bit! only hyun joong used the permanent marker! i'm a bit lucky coz i didn't touched Young Saeng's siggy on my CD at all, so his siggy is still in good condition ^^
heard that my boo, Hyun Joong almost fainted after the fan meeting! aigoooo~~~ take care of your health my dear
they didn't bring back all the gifts from the fans! they have to leave some fan gifts that is categorised as food! it is not they don't want the gifts but they have too since Korean custom won't allow any food to brought in! that means, it includes my pineapple tart! sob-sob ^^
jung-min totally a cheerful person coz he as the one who smiled a lot and he did left his piece of art on the table cloth! hahaha... naughty boy!
this is not confirm yet but likely SS501's Persona Tour in Malaysia is likely to happen this coming December! i'm sooooo freaking excited ^^
i gave up on taking pictures of the boys coz it came out sucks all the time, so i switched to video mode!!!
okay... what a shocking news to me & all SS501's fans... suddenly today pop out, there'll be a fan meeting with SS501! actually the boys now are in Sabah for photoshoot and they will drop by in KL before heading to South Korea just to meet Malaysian fans... how sweet is that??? i'm so excited coz that means i can meet one of my TRIPLE kim: KIM HYUN JOONG ^^
basically the event will be held on 3rd September this Thursday at One World Hotel, Bandar Utama at 6pm! how excited am i??? that freaking hotel is 5 minutes away from my house... YAY!!! for more info on the event, please visit TRIPLE S MALAYSIA
i'm here to help to those who wanna go but have no idea how to go!!! here are 2 suggestions from me:
first, if you use PUTRA LRT, get down at Kelana Jaya station. there'll be FREE shutter bus to One Utama. or if you hate bus and you wanna reach earlier, get yourself a cab at the station ^^ it is about 20 minutes away drive by taxi...
second, from KL Sentral, you can take Rapid KL bus number U82... just a reminder: this second method is quite risky coz it will be during peak hours! there'll be tremendous traffic jam starting at 5pm... so, plan your time carefully coz i don't think you wanna reach the hotel after the event ends don't you ;)
